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Ashtara
This morning I awakened with a big Ahh-haa realization. I’ve spent most of my life promoting others to be the star that they are – and I love to do it. I have visible evidence of the effect of this teaching all around me. It has been and still is a great delight to see my former students blossoming into their true flowering. Through my many years of astrological teaching, promoting/organizing Wesak spiritual festivals and lots of other group work I’ve done my best to encourage, stimulate, inspire and activate others to go beyond their comfort zone and demonstrate their radiance to a larger group. I will continue to do this because it brings me such a sense of fulfilment and joy.
However, promoting myself, and my personal work is quite a different story! I play out Libra very well – ie focus on others and encourage them to be the star that they are. The opposite polarity of Aries proved to be far more difficult. It’s been a life-long learning curve for me to become an identity in my own right – to know myself and to even consider for a fleeting moment promoting myself. It’s so much easier to encourage and promote others!
When this is a major life lesson to learn then the Universe has ways of ensuring that it is learned!!
And so I found myself alone with my little dog Tui needing to survive independently without the prop of a partner. I like a challenge. I will not give up, even though self-defeat and self-pity can be quite enticing! This part of my Aries was working well!
The Full Moon and Lunar eclipse of 3rd March was quite a powerful one. I was unable to write about it at the time however I knew it would be about healing, as it was at 12 degrees of Virgo. Virgo is the sign attributed to health and healing. The effect of an eclipse can last for up to 18 months from the time of it kicking in. It begins to be felt about three months prior to the actual eclipse.
Two months before the eclipse I sold my house. A month later I bought another, moved, had eight family members stay with me six days after I moved, attended a family wedding, had my trilogy of astrology books printed and completed and did my first ever presentational seminar. Not bad for a weakened Aries!!
However, to get my books re-vamped and re-printed, a new website up and running and a more modern and professional form of teaching implemented I needed support and guidance. I did not feel I had the emotional strength or the know-to do this on my own. I asked a young and wise friend to help me. Kathy Wise believed in me as much as I’d always believed in my students. She suggested ways I could implement change. This took me way out of my comfort zone but I was willing to be stretched. Kathy has been and is continuing to be stretched by my futuristic expansive ideas! I had to learn how to work modern technology such as power point presentations and to advance my knowledge of uses for my computer. Technology has always been such a great challenge to me as I had such great fear of it ‘blowing up’. I’m sure many of you can relate to this!! I asked another friend to help me with this technological aspect. Joan Ellerby assisted me greatly and has also been stretched through teaching me. We have both learned and grown through the experience. I thank these two wonderful women from the bottom of my heart.
This morning I realized how far I’d moved in the last few months. I am now feeling more confident about promoting myself. I am very proud of my website and newly re-vamped books. The books are selling wonderfully well. The feed-back from them is fantastic. The two seminars I held have been outstandingly successful. The feed-back from everyone at the recent Gold Coast seminar was “excellent” on every count! WOW! This is awesome! Thank you so very much attendees for your inspiring comments.
During my Virgo Full Moon meditation I made a resolve to become aware of the next layer of healing that needed to take place for my spiritual growth. I had no idea what it was. I was advised by my inner guidance that the dense energy was stored in my pancreas. I went to Annette Noontil’s book, The Body is the Barometer of the Soul and found her explanation for pancreatic problems. It rang true to me –my body resonated and vibrated with the information. I knew it to be true. The body never lies.
Weakened patterns of thought, feeling, emotion and behaviour reside in different cells and are stored in different organs of the body. I had a dense and negative psychological theme running in my psyche that indicated I was carrying past life shame from a previous life-time failure. This deeply buried issue drove me into fear of success because of fear of failure and the resultant shame. The Full Moon is a wonderful time for working through and healing these old out-worn patterns. Now I was aware of my dense “shame” patterning and why I felt so ineffectual about promoting myself. Deep-seated shame can create hot flushes in the body along with inflammations. This is an Aries theme.
This morning I awakened and knew the healing had taken place because I could see my former games clearly. When I experience a healing into greater wholeness I like to share it because there are many others who also carry the same patterning. I hope this article assists you to understand and consciously bring into balance your Aries/ Libra polarity.
March 13th 2007.
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