Blur. Blur. Blur!  That’s what the past week has felt like- a huge blur.   Sometimes I have a couple of hours of normalcy, and then fade back into blur.  Like two days ago for instance.  That morning was spent in bed, in a blur (as are most mornings since I’ve been in La Paz) and then RosseMary came to visit and gradually I developed a degree of normalcy so we went out to a very late lunch.  I became my normal self, animated, bright and sharing some stories that had us both laughing.  Her girl friend joined us and the hilarity continued.  Then suddenly I felt this wash, this wave of ‘blur’ descend and I had to go back to my room and get into bed.  It’s like I become drugged.   The same thing happened yesterday.  Different circumstances. This time I took RosseMary and her two boys to a fun parlour where there was lots of naughty food served.  Everyone was having a great time and then, that was it for me.  That wash of ‘drugged’ weakness descended again. Back to bed!

 I know I will be back to normal as soon as I get to USA. I need to be to handle customs and immigration and arrange my flight to Seattle.  In the meantime I do the best I can and just allow the process to work through me.  I haven’t touched my book since October 3^rd, when the Pluto ‘volcano’ erupted!   I’m also experiencing a Neptune transit and Neptune is the one who dissolves old ego patterns, such as self-doubt, often through ‘blur’ i.e. confused and vague, often psychic, experiences.   That’s my friend! He’s really having a party with me! It feels like I'm processing not only my own but some of humanity's unresolved psychic debris.  At least I have an understanding of what's going on in other realms and this makes it easier.

10^th October